I sat out in the garden this morning for a few hours. Listening to music and watching the planes go overhead. It was an ok type of activity in the circumstances, till I cried so much I could no longer see the sky.

It’s a tough gig trying to remember our cheerful and hilarious dude right now. The unit time keeps seeping in and swamping any thoughts with horror, rage and questions.

One song I listened to was ‘Wrecking’ by Laura Veirs. A few years ago some Vancouver film students used it as a backing track for a short black and white film. The kids never liked watching it. They said it was way too sad. I always thought it reflected what life is like for dudes like LB.